From [FW] with Luvz // Eyes ON, now!

 



Oh my goodness, how quickly we can realize how tiny, tiny, tiny our world is!

[On my mama, on my hood...]

I literally had my world ripped wide open to reveal the eldritch horrors that mammy and pappy told you to NEVER look back at if you valued what shrapnel of reality you even had left!

I keep forgetting how nasty, how repugnant, and how much scum buildup has been in the pipes. The problem's BEEN in the air ducts, guys. The CEMENT. FOUNDATION. IS. INFECTED. The walls are laced to the CEILING and the ROOF IS ON FIRE!!!

I DON'T THINK YOU GET IT! A REAL SPETACULAR SHIT SHOW! WE HAVE TO EVACUATE!

I got to talk to these people. I got to hear their agony. I got to write til my hands cramp, making these papers and hieroglyphics and anagrams all make fuggin' SENSE to the grand SCHEME! The priiiiize to keep your eyes on! We work for setbacks, we keep running TOWARDS setbacks. We. Leap. Into. TURMOIL and expect there to be sunbeams and unicorn cupcakes! Or at least a decent macchiato to go with our CONSISTANT AGONY. "Ugh.... The /atmosphere/ here, guys, let's get outta here..."

[I look fly, I look good...]

We got to make money. Money. Money. FUC-- MONEY. I want to make PEACE! I want to make MEMORIES! WE AIN'T! GOT!! MUCH!!! TIME!!!!

We ain't got much.... Will we ever have anything more...

No more than we can bear, though.

...

No more than we can bear.

It's unbearable. It FEELS unbearable, at least. Did we swap with Venus, because the pressure, my God.

You unveil ALL of the ever seeing eyes and what did you EVEN. THink was going to happen when you wake the heretics?!

[Touch my swag, wish you could...]

They all awaken, they ALL WEEP! THEY'RE. ALL. WEEPING!

What has been done.


Can anything be done?



[Why the song lyrics? For distraction purposes! Were you paying attention to me???]


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